Dedicated to Thomas F. Fredenburg
Eulogy was written, performed, recorded, and produced by timothyday at Park Studios from 2017 to 2021. Vocals on Asteria’s Interlude by Sarah Fredenburg.
Special thanks to my entire family for their love and support, especially my mom, brother, sister, brother in law, nieces, mother and father in law, and my wife. My life long friends. My dog and cat.
Instruments-
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Two Way Mirror –
Cannot stop my thoughts when I’m alone.
So search my pockets for my phone.
See if someone likes the pictures that I post; A mindless loop of narcissistic hope.
Cycle through cliched overplayed tropes from people that I hardly know;
a two way mirror is hiding all of your new scars.
Breezing past your perfect well groomed life;
displaying your magic lit eyes inside the camera for your stranger friends to see.
Stardust –
Never had a chance to say goodbye
call you on the phone and tell you how much I miss your smile.
I wonder where stardust goes when it dies?
Does it wander off or does it embed itself inside?
Are you gone forever now that you died?
Do you peak within the thoughts that plague my troubled mind?
I await the hope that when I die
you will hold my hand and lead me across the fading light.
I see you in the glistening sunlight.
Is my imagination just playing tricks within my eyes?
Doogie Howser –
We’re lost in the fog
And we’ll crawl our way back to the stars
Now it’s been so long
Since things felt like when we were young.
Gotta make time
Try to make gains
Cannot lose the world
Driving our cars
on the wrong way
Four alarm bells
Shake our heads
wincing in the pain
Speaking our oath
on a wednesday
Yesterday
We’re lost in the fog
And we’ll crawl our way back to the stars.
Why can’t you love the feeling inside when it hardly ain’t done you wrong?
Why can’t you be the happiness inside you wish that they would see?
We’re lost in the fog
And we’ll crawl our way back to the stars
Now it’s been so long
Since things felt like when we were young.
Time to wake up
Cannot see straight
Bought to lose our heads
From the high crimes
that they perpetrate
Gotta seek change
Never tempt fate
Can’t erase facts
To alleviate
sins that they validate
We’re lost in the fog
And we’ll crawl our way back to the stars
Now it’s been so long
Since things felt like when we were young.
Why can’t you love the feeling inside when it hardly ain’t done you wrong?
Why can’t you be the happiness inside you wish that they would see?
Away, I wanna go back to the way it was yesterday.
Away, I wanna go back to the way it was yesterday.
Away, I wanna go back to the way it was yesterday.
Away, I wanna go back to the way it was yesterday.
Asteria’s Interlude –
(Instrumental)
Blackbirds –
I woke up in the rain
When I felt it stinging my face
I sat up where I lay
while I shook off the dreams that I chased
My head is swimming in place
as I get my bearings straight
I know I’ve seen this place somewhere
but it’s never the same
Cobwebs are falling out of your ears
Blackbirds are nesting on your head.
I woke up in the rain
But I couldn’t shelter in place
I know I’ve wandered astray
and I need to find my way
Feel like it’s out of place
but not open up to the blame
The thought of no escape
from our careless mistakes
Cobwebs are falling out of your ears
Blackbirds are nesting on your head.
I Woke Up Asleep –
I was all alone
in a city that’s far from home
Like a dream I’m told
The streets wound around my soul
I cannot feel my feet as I walk home
The waves beneath the street
will guide me along
I woke up asleep
To the weather that’s patterned deep
The rain, the snow, and the wind
Did pummel my bruising skin
And I can’t seem to find my way outside
The wind is blowing behind the red eyes
But can’t you touch the growing isles?
But can’t you feel your feet beneath the skies?
Everyone Leaves Here All Alone –
Hello.
You better say your goodbyes.
Because everyone leaves here all alone.
No matter how they try.
Even if they’re standing there
Right by your side
We all float up all alone
Between the edge of the sky
No one here gets out alive
So don’t even try
denying
No one here can leave the way they are behind
Deny it.
No one here can get out from the light, beside.
Denial.
No one here can leave the weighted skies tonight.
Deny it.
Don’t want to be here alone.
Don’t want to be here alone.
Hello.
You better say your goodbyes.
Cause everyone leaves here all alone.
No matter how they try.
Even if they’re all standing by your side, you won’t deny it
We all float up all alone from the moment we die.
Even you and I.
Vernal Slumber –
On the Monday
when that church in France was burning,
you were laid down.
I came in through fast doors
Where everyone stood still
But you were already gone.
I had this feeling you were watching us from above.
I had this feeling you were watching us go.
Then we walked down to the next room over
You were silent; Laying down
Your skin was so cold;
I’m going through your pockets
Like the vacuum of your thoughts
I had this feeling you were watching us from above.
I had this feeling you were woven inside my thoughts.
Lost With You –
It’s true
We’re getting lost with you.
You see
We are lost at sea
With you
The truth can never
wash away
in spite of you
The truth can never
Be cast away
Just for you.
It’s true
We are lost with you
And you know
That we
We might never see what’s true
The truth can never wash away
In spite of you
The truth can never ever drown.
With you.
We can’t give up
We can’t give up hope
We gotta swim back home
We can’t give up
We can’t give up hope
We gotta swim back home
We can’t give up
We can’t give up hope
We gotta swim back home
We can’t give up
We can’t give up hope
Meanwhile in Space –
(Instrumental)
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